IM SO SORRY.

I DONT THINK THIS ENTRY WILL INTEREST OR MAKE SENSE TO ANYONE EXCEPT HER, SORRY.

I DONT UNDERSTAND YOU AT ALL.
"BE NICE, CALL, SMILE, GET OUT OF YOUR ROOM, BE A GOOD KID"
I DO ALL OF THESE THINGS. ME AND HIM FINALLY HAVE A BETTER RELATIONSHIP, JUNIOR HIGH AND FRESHMAN YEAR WERE AWFUL
BUT YOU HAVE CHANGED.
YOU USED TO BE MY BESTFRIEND. I USED TO COME HOME FROM SCHOOL EVERYDAY AND SIT ON YOUR BED AND WE WOULD TALK. I USED TO LOVE SPENDING WEEKENDS DOING NOTHING BUT RUN ERRANDS WITH YOU, BUT YOUR SO DIFFERENT NOW.
YOU SAID, WORD FOR WORD. "I WONT CALL YOU ANYMORE. IM SICK TO DEATH OF YOU ALWAYS WORRYING IF YOU UPSET EVERYONE BUT NOT GIVING A CRAP ABOUT MY FEELINGS. YOU DONT CARE ABOUT ME AT ALL."
IM SORRY I HURT YOUR FEELING.
I DONT KNOW WHY YOUR SO ANGRY WITH ME; BECAUSE MY SCHOOL GAVE US FRIDAY AND MONDAY OFF AND THE COURT SAID THOSE DAYS BELONG TO MY DAD?
BECAUSE YOUR AT WORK ALL DAY ON THOSE DAYS ANYWAY?
BECAUSE I CAN MAKE MY OWN DECISIONS?
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH MOM BUT YOU REALLY NEED TO STOP, IM GLAD YOUR PARENTS STAYED TOGETHER, YOUR DAD WAS YOUR BESTFRIEND AND YOUR MOM WAS YOUR HERO. BUT I REALLY DO WISH YOU COULD KNOW WHAT ITS LIKE HAVING TO GO BACK AND FORTH BETWEEN THEM LIKE I HAVE TO.
YOU DO NOT KNOW WHAT ITS LIKE, SO DONT EVEN TRY TO SAY YOU UNDERSTAND.
YOU WANT ONE THING, THEY WANT ANOTHER. EITHER WAY IM THE BAD GUY.
IM SORRY FOR UPSETTING YOU. IM SORRY IM A BAD DAUGHTER AND DONT SPEND ENOUGH TIME WITH YOU. IM SORRY IM ALWAYS OUT WITH MY FRIENDS OR WHEN IM HOME ITS NOT CONVENIENT.
I AM SORRY.
IM GOING TO TRY MORE, TO BE HOME MORE,
TO PLEASE EVERYONE AGAIN. EVEN THOUGH I DO,
IM SORRY, IM SORRY.

I FEEL LIKE IM FALLING..




"EVEN THOUGH THE WORLD SHE LOVES
IT WILL NEVER BE THE WAY IT WAS
AND HER HEART IS WEAK,
HER HANDS ARE SHAKING"