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LIKE WE USED TO

I DECIDED TO MAKE SOME LISTS. ALL OF THINGS TO DO. THINGS I NEED TO DO NOW, BEFORE I FINISH SCHOOL, AND ONE BEFORE I DIE.

THINGS I SHOULD DO NOW:
-READ CHAPTER OVER RENASANCE FOR HISTORY
-CLEAN MY ROOM AND DO LAUNDRY
-RUN LIKE 5 MILES
-GET SOME SLEEP.

THINGS I WANT TO DO BEFORE I GRADUATE:
-GO ON A ROAD TRIP WITH MY BESTFRIENDS.
-KEEP A 4.0 THROUGHOUT HIGHSCHOOL
-LEARN SPANISH, AND FRENCH
-GET MY LICENCE(however.its.spelled), AND BE A GOOD DRIVER,
-MEET CHRISTOFER DREW AND MELISSA MARIE
-LEARN TO PLAY THE GUITAR
-START EATING HEALTHIER
-GET A JOB
-LEARN HOW TO PLAY CHESS

THINGS I WANT TO DO BEFORE I DIE:
-GO TO LONDON
-GO TO JAPAN
-GO TO AUSTRALIA
-GO TO AFRICA
-GO TO ITALY
-GO TO NEW YORK
-GO TO RUSSIA
-GO TO FRANCE
-GO TO SPAIN
-GO TO VENICE
-BASICALLY, TRAVEL, A LOT!
-RIDE IN A HOT AIR BALLOON
-READ TOP 100 BEST NOVELS
-LEARN HOW TO USE A POGO STICK
-LAY ON THE GRASS AND COUNT THE STARS WITH SOMEONE
-LEAD OTHERS TO CHRIST
-OVERCOME MY FEAR OF THE DARK.... D:
-TRY NOT TO CARE ABOUT OTHER PEOPLES OPINIONS AS MUCH
-WRITE AN ARTICLE FOR THE NEWSPAPER?
-MAKE A DIFFERENCE IN AT LEAST ONE PERSONS LIFE
-GO GREEN
-LEARN TO BE LESS MATERIALISTIC
-MUSH WITH SLED DOGS
-TELL MY PARENTS HOW MUCH THEY REALLY MEAN TO ME,
-STAY AT THE SPACE HOTEL
-NOT CHEAT AT MARCO POLO
-STOP MAKING EXCUSES
-BELIEVE IN LOVE
-FIND INNER PEACE
-DO YOGA OR PILATES
-LEARN SIGN LANGUAGE
-GO ON A TRAIN
-LEARN TO FORGIVE, AND ACTUALLY FORGET
-GO TO SPAIN AND PARTICIPATE IN LA TOMATINA
-BE CONTENT WITH BEING ALONE
-LEARN A NEW WORD EVERYDAY!
-ASK FOR FORGIVENESS FROM EVERYONE IVE WRONGED.
-ADOPT AN ASIAN BABY (maybe)
-WRITE A BOOK, MAYBE EVEN GET IT PUBLISHED
-STOP WORRYING ABOUT THINGS I CANT HELP OR CHANGE
-SEND IN A POSTSECRET OF MY OWN
-HITCH HIKE
-LIVE WITHOUT MY PHONE FOR A WEEK

IM SO SORRY.

I DONT THINK THIS ENTRY WILL INTEREST OR MAKE SENSE TO ANYONE EXCEPT HER, SORRY.

I DONT UNDERSTAND YOU AT ALL.
"BE NICE, CALL, SMILE, GET OUT OF YOUR ROOM, BE A GOOD KID"
I DO ALL OF THESE THINGS. ME AND HIM FINALLY HAVE A BETTER RELATIONSHIP, JUNIOR HIGH AND FRESHMAN YEAR WERE AWFUL
BUT YOU HAVE CHANGED.
YOU USED TO BE MY BESTFRIEND. I USED TO COME HOME FROM SCHOOL EVERYDAY AND SIT ON YOUR BED AND WE WOULD TALK. I USED TO LOVE SPENDING WEEKENDS DOING NOTHING BUT RUN ERRANDS WITH YOU, BUT YOUR SO DIFFERENT NOW.
YOU SAID, WORD FOR WORD. "I WONT CALL YOU ANYMORE. IM SICK TO DEATH OF YOU ALWAYS WORRYING IF YOU UPSET EVERYONE BUT NOT GIVING A CRAP ABOUT MY FEELINGS. YOU DONT CARE ABOUT ME AT ALL."
IM SORRY I HURT YOUR FEELING.
I DONT KNOW WHY YOUR SO ANGRY WITH ME; BECAUSE MY SCHOOL GAVE US FRIDAY AND MONDAY OFF AND THE COURT SAID THOSE DAYS BELONG TO MY DAD?
BECAUSE YOUR AT WORK ALL DAY ON THOSE DAYS ANYWAY?
BECAUSE I CAN MAKE MY OWN DECISIONS?
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH MOM BUT YOU REALLY NEED TO STOP, IM GLAD YOUR PARENTS STAYED TOGETHER, YOUR DAD WAS YOUR BESTFRIEND AND YOUR MOM WAS YOUR HERO. BUT I REALLY DO WISH YOU COULD KNOW WHAT ITS LIKE HAVING TO GO BACK AND FORTH BETWEEN THEM LIKE I HAVE TO.
YOU DO NOT KNOW WHAT ITS LIKE, SO DONT EVEN TRY TO SAY YOU UNDERSTAND.
YOU WANT ONE THING, THEY WANT ANOTHER. EITHER WAY IM THE BAD GUY.
IM SORRY FOR UPSETTING YOU. IM SORRY IM A BAD DAUGHTER AND DONT SPEND ENOUGH TIME WITH YOU. IM SORRY IM ALWAYS OUT WITH MY FRIENDS OR WHEN IM HOME ITS NOT CONVENIENT.
I AM SORRY.
IM GOING TO TRY MORE, TO BE HOME MORE,
TO PLEASE EVERYONE AGAIN. EVEN THOUGH I DO,
IM SORRY, IM SORRY.

I FEEL LIKE IM FALLING..




"EVEN THOUGH THE WORLD SHE LOVES
IT WILL NEVER BE THE WAY IT WAS
AND HER HEART IS WEAK,
HER HANDS ARE SHAKING"

KEEP MY SECRETS

PEOPLE NEED TO STOP BEING SUCH SELLOUTS.
JUST BECAUSE THEY ARE HURT OR ANGRY THEY DECIDE TO SHARE EVEYONES SERETS.
YOURE RUINING YOUR FRIENDSHIP WITH HER, STOP RUNNING YOUR MOUTH
YOU TELL HER YOU CARE ABOUT HER AND THEN YOU RUN TO ME SPILLLING OVER WITH SECRET THOUGHTS. JUST STOP. EITHER YOU CARE AND YOU STAY QUIET, OR YOU DONT AND YOURE AN OPEN BOOK. ...
WHAT IF GOD WAS LIKE THAT?
WHAT IF HE ONLY WANTED A FEW OF US? BECAUSE THE REST WERE TOO FAR GONE OR HE DIDNT CARE? WHAT IF HE REVEALED OUR BIGGEST SINS AND SERETS TO THE WORLD, AND WAS ASHAMED OF US? BUT THATS NOT HOW HE IS. HE LOVES US.


"The summer was full of mistakes
We wouldn't learn from"

:d

JEREMIAH 29:11

I GOT MY HEART TIED IN A KNOT AND MY STOMACH IN A WHIRL

I FEEL LIKE IM GOING TO SPEND FOREVER UNPACKING. I GOT BACK FROM RETREAT, AND UNPACKED FOR ALMOST AN HOUR. FRIDAY I HAD ORE TO UNPACK, SATURDAY I SPENT AT A FRIENDS SO THIS MORNING I UNPACKED FROM THAT, AND THE I JUST FINISHED UNPACKING MY THINGS I FINALLY GOT BACK... I DIDNT KNOW I HAD LEFT BEHIND SO MUCH.

RETREAT WAS AMAZING. THE WORD AMAZING IS OVER USED, BUT I WAS ACTUALLY AMAZED. PASTOR DREW, YOU HAVE CHANGED MY LIFE.
THREE DAYS IN THE MOUNTAINS HEALED MY RELATIONSHIP IN CHRIST. I WASNT QUITE SURE ABOUT IT GOING UP, BUT COMING DOWN THE MOUNTAIN, I CAN PROUDLY AND HAPPILY SAY I AM A CHRISTIAN.

"YOURE ONLY AS TALL AS
YOUR HEART WILL LET YOU BE,
AND YOURE ONLY AS SMALL AS
THE WORLD WILL MAKE YOU SEEM"

BABIES AND ARROWS

VALENTINES DAY IS COMING UP OH JOYY. ANOTHER HALLMARK HOLIDAYY.

TOMORROW MORNING I WILL BE GOING TO BIG BEAR WITH MY SCHOOL. I'M NOT REALLY SURE WHAT TO EXPECT, BUT I HOPE ITS FUN. ITS GOING TO BE FREEZING, I PACKED AT LEAST ELEVEN SWEATSHIRTS, BUT IM SURE I'LL STILL BE COLD . I AM HOPING MR.LEWIS WILL LET MY MOM DRIVE ME UP THERE. I REALLY DONT WANT TO GO UP TEENY TINY SKINNY MOUNTAIN ROADS ON A HUGE BUS. NOT EVEN A LITTLE.

I REALLY LOVE NEVERSHOUTNEVER'S VIDEO FOR "WHAT IS LOVE"
ITS CUTE :3

I JUST LAUGH

I WANT MY FREAKING TICKETSS /:
RETREAT, NOT TOMORROW, BUT THE NEXT DAY. LESS THAN 72 HOURS AWAY.
YOURE TALKING TO HER AGAIN. GOOD, IM HAPPY. I HOPE YOU WORK THINGS OUT AND END UP HAPPY TOGETHER AGAIN. I REALLY DO WISH THE BEST FOR YOUUU.
I WENT SHOPPING TODAY. IT WAS QUITE LOVELY. BUT PURPLE WASNT THERE TODAY, OH WELL(:
I DIDNT TALK TO YOU TODAY, I UNNDERSTAND THAT YOURE BUSY.
TRACK IS STARTING SOON, IM SO NERVOUS. I GET KNOTS IN Y STOMACH JUST THINKING ABOUT IT -____-
I FOUND OUT TODAY THAT I WILL BE SLICING OPEN AN ADORABLE LOVELY GREEN LITTLE CREATURE . I CANNOT DISECT A FROG.
1- EWW, THATS DISGUSTING
2- WHAT DID THE FROG DO? WHY ARE WE HAVING TO CUT HIM AND HIS LITTLE BROTHERS AND SISTERS OPEN? HOW WOULD YOU LIKE TO BE SLICED AND BUTCHERED SO SOMEONE ELSE CAN LOOK ANDPOKE THROUGH YOUR INSIDES? NOT TOO GREAT?
I SWEAR I WILL GET OUT OF THIS, ONE WAY OTHER ANOTHER.
I PROMISE NOT TO HURT YOU LITTLE GREEN THING :[

WORRYING TOO MUCH

RETREATTT(: IS IN LIKE 5 DAYS.
SATURDAY SUNDAU MONDAY TUESDAYYY, THEN ITS ON WEDNESDAYYY.
:DD
IM EXCITED. THATS ALL:P

AND WITH TIME ALL THINGS WILL EVENTUALLY PASS

YOURE MOVING. YOURE LEAVING THE STATE.
YOU DIDNT TELL ME, OF COURSE NOT, YOU WONT EVEN TALK TO ME ANYMORE. BUT WOW, YOURE REALLY MOVING? I WONDER IF YOU'LL EVEN LET ME KNOW, OR IF YOU'LL LEAVE AND I'LL NEVER RUN INTO YOU OR TALK TO YOU EVVER AGAIN. MAYBE YOURE LYING, HOPING I WOULD HEAR ABOUT IT AND TALK TO YOU, BUT MAYBE YOURE REALLY LEAVING.



TWO PEOPLE FROM MY SCHOOL ARE MOVING TOO, ONES A JUNIOR AND ONES A FRESHMAN,
I DONT KNOW EITHER OF THEM VERY WELL. I HOPE THEY LIKE TEXAS.
I WOULD ABSOLUTELY HATE TO MOVE AWAY..

As I look back on all that’s happened … growing up, growing together, changing
you, changing me … there were times when we dreamed together, when we laughed
and cried together. As I look back on those days, I realize how much I’ll truly
miss you and how much I truly love you. The past may be gone forever... and
what the future holds, our todays make the memories of tomorrow

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AND DARLING, LIFE GOES ON

youre gone, the sun still rises and sets every day, the weather still changes, im still happy.
if i hurt you im sorry,
why is it that everyone can get over things, but when i finally do, its wrong?
why can you intentionally throw things n my face,
but even when i dont and try to keep things quiet, im the bad guy?
why can you like someone, but if i do, im being heartless?

well guess what sweetcakes:
im done caring. im done trying to please everyone.
because no matter how hard i try, someone will always find something wrong.
i'm going to do what makes me happy<3


k thanks:D

THE BUBBLEGUM CHILD

escuela tomorrow, which means tons of notetaking for finals.
i hope my geometry notebook isnt due, or else im going to fail that.
my spanish notebook too, yikes. i should probably get those together.
this weekend went by really fast,
sunday was probably the best day, i got a skirt from forever21. its adorable and grey.
finals:
i am sooo not looking foward to taking my geometry, world religions and hiatory final.
i hope if i study enough i'll get by without it affecting my grades too much.

if i could change myself i would, instead of being the selfish, ignorant little girl i turn into,
i would like to be quiet, the girl who never talks and is liked by everyone
but i guess everyone wants that, unless youre the shy litttle girl whom everyone likes.

oh if only i had a world of my own,
the sky would be pink and they clouds would be made of marshmellows. and they would rain skittles down from the heavens. buildings would be giant brownies, and people would drive bananas or apples to work every monday through thursday.

this was a pointless entry, but i felt like writing something(:





take me home and i'll tell you the truth,
everyone knows what i've done to you,

I GOT RAINBOOTS(: &SUCH

this entry is going to seem mean, but im doing it to get it out of my head.
youre his new best friend? haha you dont know friendship
friendship to you is talking about someone when they arent around.
its being nice to their pretty faes and stabbing the in the back every chance you get.you think nobody realizes it,
you whine and complain i like certain people more than you,
MAYBE ITS BECAUSE THEY EARNED AND KEPT MY TRUST.
im done dealing with your problems.
im done hearing you whine about alec.
and if there is any onfusion in your mind, let me clarify,
we are not friends, k thanks.

LETS GET RAINBOOTS.

family discussions, they always seem to get heated and feelings hurt.
i cry , she cries, you yell, he talks, and she apologizes,

im sorry im lazy
im sorry im hurtful
im sorry i dont realize how my actions harm you
im sorry for being a smartass
im sorry for getting angry with you
im sorry for crying
im sorry for saying anything in the first place

but i am not sorry for stating my opinions,
and i am not sorry, at all for defending myself.
love you guys, i really do but sometimes i just want to shove you in a blender.


i would really love if i could get some rainboots,
we're supposed to get insane abouts of rain this week, (good for retreat:D)
and i dont want my shhoes getting all messed up,
i want red boots, cheetah boots, polka spotted boots and yellow ones.



im wearing your jacket, it makes me happy.<3

SOMETIMES

i get really happy or the littlest of things.
and the thingss that should hurt me, dont
and the things that shouldnt do,
sometimes youre the only person i want to talk to
sometimes im afraid of your power over me
sometimes i think it would be better if i never met you
but when i stop, and breath and disect it, i am so happy& even thankful to have met you.
whether i'll learn from it or prosper, i met you for a reason.
but sometimes im scared to learn what that reason is.

i wonder what God intended when He created this small planet we call earth.
he must have already known hhow it would grow, and come to an end.

when people talk about equality, i think they are crazy
yes i believe we shoould all be treated the same.
although, no one, in this world is equal. nobody, some people live their life in a safe little box, content with no knowledge of the outside world. while others, are out, they have no safe box to return to, no home or family, they steal and beg in order to survive. while some live a life of luxury, they have money, cars, friends, and appear to love their lives. some people have seen things you cannot imagine, they've been beat and hurt over and over; but it doesnt even phase them.
the one and only thing humanity has in common, is death,






i'll be in the snow, only 17 more days.

as the days go byy,

i used to be love drunk, now im hung over
love you forever, forever is over.

iceskating with tristen and chau today, falling was my favorite part.
i cant get this kid out of my head.

THE FIRST TIME THAT YOU SPOKE MY NAME, I KNEW THINGS WOULD NEVER BE THE SAME

missing people

no not actual missing people.

as in to miss someone.

if you see someone everyday 365 days of the year and one morning you wake up and they're completely out of your life. you might miss them.

i'm preparing to miss someone, and i'm hoping it will be for the better

IM THINKING MORE THAN I USED TO.

cross my heart hope to die,
swear i wont say what happned that night,

i miss you candice and roxanne and sammy :( PE is not the same without you,
i remember the firdt time i met you guys, we had to swim, and i was annoying candice and talking a lot about some guy, but after getting to know you guys i feel like you were my sisters, i miss jumping over the fence and picking oranges. and i miss watching robert do his asain voodoo on us, and writing candice the longest notes anyone has ever seen.
i promise candice i will get you a cheetah snuggie& roxanne, you got me addicted to post secret, sammy, i cant think about phantom of the opera without you singing in the background.
okay, im done complaining. almost(:

riverside christian has finals in two weeks, hopefully they will be much easier than MLKs but who knows. i decided im going to read my biology book covr to cover this weekend and my history book the nextt, those being my two hardest subjects/:

annywayss;
whats really on my mind,
besides retreat and himm(:

i think every girl goes through a phase in their life were they obsess about their weight
i want it to go away,
i used to be able to eat with feeling guilty for it







retreat is coming up, i cant wait, learning to snowboard should be interesting,
i think im going to fall on my face(: